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I can admit that I haven’t had much date experience. I mean, I have been asked out on dates but I always never showed up or canceled it due to my own reasoning so with that said: I have never been on a date. A lot of people have different definitions of the word date and I want us to be on the same page here. When I think of a date this is what I think of: A man approaches me, gets my number calls me, asks me to meet up at a location where we can enjoy each other’s company (or not enjoy), we eat or do whatever activity he has planned, he pays (yes, I’m old fashioned and believe the man should pay. However, the woman can pick up the tab if she was the one who inquired about the date), and then we talk about how we think things went and carry on from there. I hope I’m not asking for much but being I haven’t had a successful date yet I am starting to think that I am. I think my problem just lies in me making it to the date stage. I have seen some of my friends date constantly and talk to boys all the time and fall into the “Guy Cycle” and do not want to end up it. I know girls who always meet a guy, date a guy, start to like the guy, they fall in love with the guy, and then while the whole world thinks things couldn’t be going better for her something happens and they break up. I don’t want to fall into that deadly cycle. I think my way of avoiding the bad part of the cycle is just to stop at the meet the guy part. But that is just pure foolery. I know the real reason why I won’t date and right now we won’t get into that lol. But honestly, that is a small part of it. Why get all hyped up about something that could just end tragically? I rather not put my heart through it. What would be a good reason for me to? Not everyone gets to be with their one true love. I know that for a fact. I have seen it. You can’t tell me there is always a happy ending because there isn’t. Even with all that I witnessed, read, and heard about I would still like to think I can obtain one though. I really think every girl in world (boys too) should just sue Disney. They made falling in love look so easy and happy. Yet, come to find out it takes so much more.

My niece is four years old and she sometimes likes to put on a crown and act like a princess. I use to do the same thing. I also thought that somewhere a boy was training to fight dragons and monsters in his room with a sword so when he met me he could fit all the obstacles in between me and him. I’m still wondering where those soldiers are. I really like to think that one day I will meet some incredible human being. I want our connection to be earth quaking and nerve wrecking at the same time. I want to have endless conversations, dip in different seas, and laugh at 2:37am in the morning with this person. Yes, I am a hopeless old fashion romantic and some part of me thinks I will find one too. I might and I might not but I like to dream that I will. Everyone has a soul mate they say and if mine is reading this I hope one day we can be in the same place at the same time because I would like to meet you. Don’t tell me when and where, I like surprises.